Pulling the wings off butterflies

So annoyed and aggravated with myself at the moment. Doing the same thing over and over again is the definition of stupidity is it not?

Some things no matter how much they matter to you or how bad you want them are just not going to be within your grasp. Grrrr hate that. I’ve never been the type to give up but looks like I am gonna have to learn. Yeah life lesson. NOT!