Entry for April 29, 2008

I have so much on my mind. I don’t even know where to start to get it out. Why is it that the things you feel the most are the hardest to articulate.

I don’t want to fight for or about anything anymore but as soon as I say that, even to myself, I can’t help but have the thought that aren’t the things you want and need worth fighting for? It’s just stupid, round and round in a circle. Anyways enough of me and depression.

I hung curtains this past weekend…got lucky. Hung them up and voila! No steaming, no ironing. Guess God does love me after all. I want to change this site up. By the time I am home and working on my own stuff all creativity is gone. I really should though. Think I might start a section on all the books I read. Maybe I will try to do the amazon.com affiliate thing again. It’s a pretty good program.

It’s quiet tonight. Not even a sound out on the street. Very weird. It’s only about 10pm. Wonder if everyone is watching the Rangers game.



Entry for April 24, 2008

Free! Free! Free!

I don’t go back to work until Monday!

Can you say Snoopy Dance!

I am presently being shoved into an itty bitty corner of the couch by the Lily Monster. I think she is sad though so it’s okay.

Going to go to the nail and hair salon tomorrow. Pampering time. I should probably go to the tanning salon too. Think I may.

Going back to reading.. “Beyond the Dark“.


Entry for April 16, 2008

Okay recap of the past week…

Went to dinner at Ruth’s Chris with everyone from my department at work to celebrate how well we are doing. Everyone has been working really hard and it was a good thing to go out, even if just for a meal and to kick back a bit. Sometimes it’s good to remember we are all friends too.

Attended Vision Expo East which is the big show for the optical industry. Went for a bite to eat to the Blue Water Grill in Union Square with a long time customer… more like friend… had a nice time. Was an absolutely gorgeous day so we ate outside on the terrace. Was wonderful to finally meet him.

Whole thing was pretty cool for me as it was the first time I’ve been back down to the city after the lousy panic attacks started. It may have taken three years but I am definitely beating the whole thing without medication. I’m glad I an too stubborn to be told what I can and can not do. Just wish I had not listened sooner and done it my way. I would be further along.

Sunday Ryan and I had a major slug fest and watched movies all day. To start I Am Legend, then Alvin and the Chipmunks, followed by 30 Days of Night, and wrapping up with Hitman.

Ummmmmm… went through my closets and cleaned out a ton of clothes. No joke, I really have way too much and should be ashamed of myself, which I am. No more shopping for a while and so far I have resistated the urge.

I am on day 2 of the fatlossforidiots diet. Today was an all fruit day. Supposedly you can lose 9lbs. every 11 days. If it works I will let everyone know.

I really need to go in and take a shower, blow out the hair, paint the nails and toes but I don’t feel like getting up from this couch. It’s like when spring comes in and the night is cool but nice I’ve taken a sleepy pill.