I don’t know why it still amazes me how I can be just fine for so long and than it’s like a curtain coming down on the rest of the world and you are all that’s on my mind. One of those days, the car parked next to me same as yours, turn on the radio and the playlist reeks of a conspiracy, looking for my earrings find a picture of you. Wonder how your life is now. Wish I would see you. Maybe I should get a shrink. Maybe someone will invent a giant pencil eraser and edit out all the little parts of my brain that are imprinted with you. Today that would make my head empty. Much like it must have been when I decided to play around with you.
Rant, rant, rant… a very childish tantrum would probably feel very good right now. Could always make a voodoo doll, that might work. What I should do is go immerse myself in something, which is exactly what I am going to do.
I am so bored, can’t sleep again. Someone is riding around on a little moped outside. It’s like someone mowing their lawn at 8am. I would really love to go plow them down with my truck . I got pulled over last Friday for going around someone on the saw mill pkwy, I just wanted to get away from the happy breaker so I nailed it and right at that moment spotted the westchester county cop. He didn’t even have to turn on the lights I just pulled over. 70 in a 55. I have to say he was really nice and let me go.
Dracula 2000 is on righ now. Gerard Butler is HOT! “Dignity, doctor”. I’d sure as hell let him bite me. The screaming would be sounds of absolute glee.
I really am a hopeless, sappy romantic. I was watching The Village with Joaquim Phoneix and Ron Howard’s daughter… there is the scene where the boogeyman is coming and they are all running and hiding in the cellar…she won’t close the door because he is still out there… so she stands there with her hand out waiting for him and the boogeyman is getting closer and closer than boom there he is hand in hers and he pulls her into the house to safety. Just does it for me 100%. Awwwwww.
This actually isn’t a big suprise to me considering I fell hook, line and sinker for my first love when he told my boogeyman “leave my lady alone or I’m going to kick your ass” which he proceeded to do. Sighhh. I do hope he is happy where ever he may be now.
Romance is found in small and strange spaces as it should be.